Friday, November 23, 2012

Searching for a Purpose in My Adversities

September 23, 2012 7:39 PM

Tonight, I want to focus on all RSDS (Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy) people. Persons with RSDS are not 'Patients'. Please understand that anybody with this dis-ease condition are normal people and not 'patients' that are crippled and are no use to anybody and/or ourselves/themselves.

However, if there is anybody reading this article tonight that has RSDS, "YOU" are miserable! And, that is why I want to focus tonight on 'YOU', especially. I know when I was experiencing my greater pain it was very, very difficult to listen or care what anybody else was telling me to do. People meant well in their effects of support, but all that I could center in on was 'PAIN'.

Now, please stay with me in my thoughts and feelings. I have no intent of sharing 'my story' with the intention of 'can you top my story'? And, I have no intention of sharing as to reflect how I experienced so much pain and sharing 'a pity story'.

We all have a 'story'. They are just different. Everyone of us are 'walking' some kind of 'journey'. We all have hills and valleys. I have found that any experiences that have come our way 'invited or uninvited' can be stepping stones to a fuller and richer insight for ourselves, our families and others by walking this way.

There is 'purpose' in our adversities but it is ok if you can not see that today. Hold firm and stay focused on the immediate just now. My first focus/purpose was my ten year old daughter at the time. I was a single Mother. The rest was survival and I had to search every book, tape, professional help, friends that cared and but did not understand, family and I had to dig deep within whenever I could to 'a faith' that I had difficulty trusting in my PAIN. But, little is better than none. Just crawl deep within and hold on to 'hope' for starters.

I have found it is very important to stay focused on the 'bigger picture' to, first, survive. So, from here I will share a little more of 'my story'.

This is a question that was asked of me many years ago now as I was experiencing/searching for a diagnosis as to why I was experiencing so much pain and could not walk without crutches.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE TOLD BY DOCTORS THAT IN MONTHS OR YEARS TO COME YOU WOULD SPEND YOUR FUTURE ON AND OFF IV pain medications, JUST TO CONTROL THE PAIN, AND THAT YOUR CONDITION WAS NOT CURABLE?

Well, of course, I had mixed emotions and was fearful. This is why I want to speak to the hurting tonight of RSDS. I want to offer you words of hope that will seems as a paradox tonight. For, I have just stated that it is very difficult to receive any encouragement in the midst of your pain but it does get better. There is hope. And, when YOU can not feel it or find it, hold on to anything and everything that you can read, hear or find to give you hope and strength just for today. Tomorrow will come soon enough to begin again. This 'moment' is all that you have. Take one moment at a time.

And, I realize that one's faith can be wounded during this time of pain, too. So, rest in others prayers and support. And, remember, YOU do not have to explain what and how you are feeling.

I was forced to quit my employment, endured over thirty pain block treatments, had a surgical procedure Implant pain device placed in my tummy and an Implant in my spine to control the pain of RSDS in my legs and went through a 'near death experience.'

I will continue another time but please know that I am a
vibrant, alive example and real evidence as to how one with
RSDS can have a full life after/with (remission) RSDS.
..... Next, we will walk through how this is possible...it is, my friend! Please do not ever give up! I will be praying for YOU tonight and every night. God Bless you!

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